- Monday, June 22, 2009 -
yesterday i went to his wake with val. at first i didnt know what to expect, what to feel. but it was answered when i saw his picture and went to pay respects... and then and there, there was like a feeling like something is stuck in my throat and i don't really know what to say. emotions of saddnes, sort of overwhelmed me through the night... i couldn't help but to let my tears fall after sometime...
we spoke to his mum and found out more about his conditions after his accident... he suffered and fought for his life in the hospital for close to 17 days. i knew that he was someone who would tolerate pain... and knowing that the pain he felt was so unbearable that he even told his mum that he couldnt take it and wanted to go... it must have felt very very bad. so at least... he is finally resting in peace... with all the pain taken away from him...
Ken Lloyd will always be remembered for his loyalty towards his friends and how he always put his friends before self. yesterday during the wake, we had his best friend and sister that spoke about him... and all talking about how he often help his friend when in need and all that. to think that many years ago in sec school, he was already like that. he would stand by his friends who are in trouble, even though he know that he would get into trouble and get into nonsense detention and all that. he would always always go all out to help his friends... even just before he passed away, the sis said that he asked his sis, how to pray? because he wanted to pray for all his friends... even to his last lap, he was still thinking of his friends...
i remembered that last time in sec one, whenever exams were near and i would get worried about failing it and so on, he would always tell some nonsense jokes to make me not think about the stress and all. and everytime after an exam you would see him happily playing away, but not as if he would do very well because he wasn't the study type. rather he is the carefree type that wasn't really bothered by his grades. he was always happy-go-lucky and always there to put a smile on his friends' faces...
it is still hard for me to register the fact that this has happened... flashes of the past memories kept running through my head... and it must be tough knowing how his best friends might have felt... but i believed they all kept a strong front. especially his family... at least the thought that he is no longer suffering from the unbearable pain and torture would put our mind at ease...
ken lloyd, you have made an impact in our lifes in someway or another. and we would always remember all these good memories of you...Labels: Reality
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